Anne Sexton | Gelflings At Play

Author: Molli
Monday 21st May 2007 at 8:47 pm
Category: Depression, Love, Poetry

Tags: Anne Sexton, Dazed Kitsune, muse

Is this what you bequeath me, Anne,
your Love Plant composting at the front of my crib?
Couldn’t you have held out longer,
let me grow into the gift?
I never had time to develop thorns
to fend off your monstrous weeds.
You curled into the shell of my ear,
vine-like, you threaded my brain
and my veins, my veins
oh, how very tempting
the blood red amongst your greenery of love.

I live in awe of a suicide
Such admiration for one who quit
who knew when it was time
to let go
(oh, no, mustn’t go there. The shrinks will think I want her
death.)
but the strength she had
to say no
more
to say
enough
but not too much.

I wrestle with the love plant,
its ropey tendrils tying me
spread eagled
across the bed
(would I even change the sheets
if I could?)
I grapple with the conundrum you left, Anne…
Do I surrender to this heart’s invasion
or do I surrender
to despair?

I wish I knew which
truly signified the strength
of letting go.

2:50pm Thursday
1.December.2005

(Anne Sexton committed suicide less than eight weeks after I was born – Sure, I can find a way to take that personally! )

This poem was posted because a line in Fox’s poem “Muse” reminded me of it. Please don’t take my pitiful writings as any reflection on Fox’s! I have excellent taste – but no talent. You really MUST read “Muse”, don’t just take my word for it.Her poem, in turn, was inspired by John’s poem “New Owners”

At a guess, I’ve just broken something akin to a chain letter in posting an older poem instead of creating a new one.

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Author: Molli
Sunday 21st May 2006 at 8:10 pm
Category: Love, Poetry, Relationships, The Ghost Of Miseries Past

Tags: Anne Sexton, Poets

A freak but moist flower
tangles my lungs, knits into my heart,
crawls up my throat
and sucks like octopi on my tongue.
You planted it happily last summer
and I let it take root with my moon-hope,
not knowing it would come to crowd me out,
to explode inside me this March.
All winter trying to diminish it,
I felt it enlarge.
But of course never spoke to you of this,
for my sanity was awful enough,
and I felt compelled to think only of yours.
Now that you have gone for always
why does not the plant shrivel up?
I try to force it away.
I swallow stones.
Three times I swallow slender vials
with crossbones on them.
But it thrives on their liquid solution.

I light matches and put them in my mouth,
and my teeth melt but the greeenery hisses on.
I drink blood from my wrists
and the green slips out like a bracelet.
Couldn’t one of my keepers get a lawn mower
and chop it down if I turned inside out for an hour?
The flower, this pulp, the hay stuff
has got me, got me.
Apparently both of us are unkillable.

I am coughing. I am gagging. I feel it enter
the nasal passages, the sinus, lower, upper
and thus to the brain – spurting out of my eyes,
I must find a surgeon who will cut it out, burn it out
as they do sometimes with violent epileptics.
I will dial one quickly before I erupt!

Would you guess at it
if you looked at me swinging down Comm. Ave.
in my long black coat with its fur hood,
and my long pink skirt poking out step by step?
That under the coat, the pink, the bra, the pants,
in the recesses where love knelt
a coughing plant is smothering me?

Perhaps I am becoming unhuman
and should accept its natural order?
Perhaps I am becoming part of the green world
and maybe a rose will just pop out of my mouth?
Oh passerby, let me bite it off and spit it at you
so you can say “How nice!” and nod your thanks
and walk three blocks to your lady love
and she will stick it behind her ear
not knowing it will crawl into her ear, her brain
and drive her mad.

Then she will be like me -
a pink doll with her frantic green stuffing.

~ from ‘The Complete Poems
page 527-29

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