Two weeks from now ~
by now I would be swollen
heavy with life
two heartbeats
two brains, four eyes,
four hands, four legs,
sixteen fingers and four thumbs
a tangle of toes
two heartbeats
two lives, inseparable, entwined.
Two weeks form now you would begin
the drawing away
the endless days, endless dance
of merging and separating.
Mouth to breast
we would continue the joining
Mouth howling, spewing a new generation’s words,
milk and food vomited
rejected
we would continue to part.
Two weeks from now I would look into your eyes
and cry
for your terrible beauty
and terrifying dependence
and I would wonder
will you learn the piano
better than I?
Would my love of language have passed
through your umbilical cord?
Would the cutting of it
amount to a separation, abandonment
beyond redress?
Will you forever hate me in a tiny corner of your heart
for evicting you,
for teaching you to stand
on your own two feet,
wobbly and unsure
afraid of the alienness of terra firma?
Will you hate me for holding on?
Hate me more for letting go?
Two weeks from now
one of the animals will have departed
the Ark.
Would you be bewildered, dazed and lost
forever seeking the twin of the pair?
Would you, like me,
know yourself as complete
and yet still long
for Noah’s myth
Noah’s guaranteed continuation,
the immortality
of the twosome?
You were the only one ushered into the Ark,
my littlest one,
and you debarked long before
we ever reached port
And two weeks from now I will arrive at the appointed meeting time
and you will not be there.
You were never evicted, little one,
and it is I,
not you
left feeling abandoned
and utterly rejected.
If your father could only see me now
would he feel anything
but sick
with relief
that you are
not?
5:10pm Monday
18.August.2003

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Wow… I absolutely love this piece. I can relate in so many ways. Your words came to life and held onto my heart til I was thru reading the very last line. I love it.
Thank you, Tanae. It’s lovely of you to visit and to take the time to comment…. and to say such nice things, too!
I’m going to HAVE to start writing again so I can post happy poems… I wish it could have been something much more cheerful for you to relate to
Ah, Beth, I’m sorry to hear you know precisely where I was writing from.
The echoes and unanswered questions never really fade, do they?
This spoke to me….the first part expressed how I felt about the time I would have had my child that miscarried. Knowing I will never know those things…..
Questions unanswered….pain never ending……
Many thanks again for your time and attention
I’ve been browsing around your site “A Life Of Recluse”. I must say, I like the concept (and that photo!). I’m struggling a little with the navigation, however. Since I can’t find a place to leave a comment for you there, I’m afraid this will have to suffice for the time being. I wish you well with your project there – it certainly looks interesting and anything that speaks of being a recluse appeals to me, a hermit-in-progress
You made me tut tut tut…with such saddness and much truth! Bravo Molli… najmax
Ah, that might explain why I was getting a little lost – I clicked every link but missed out on any streaming media. I’m on a dial-up connection here and it takes forever for anything like that to kick in and, even when it does, it has a tendency to start and stop so often that it becomes painful to listen to/watch.
I was actually hoping to read more of your writing but couldn’t find a link. Your username here is linked to “Life Of A Recluse”, not a wordpress blog.
Please feel free to add a link to your site here – I’d like to read your poetry
Thanks for taking a look at my site…alot of people get confused with the navigation…but I say always remember that it is a hypertext. Its is written so that the reader feels disoreantated, and a little confused, ( The text is HYPER) so keep clicking more links to find out more! Just go with flow, click whatever you want, and It will eventually make sence…PS always click on the title chapter heading (when it appears as a link) because this will play videos music and show photos in the tv…Thanks again I really appreciate you taking the time to go visit my site, and hope that you will visit my wordpress blog for my poetry. Love Najma x
Yes you will get lost…but do not be afraid to get lost in my world, I dont hate anyone and wont hurt anyone, even if my writing comes across venomous sometimes…Its a shame about your dail up, you will find it fustrating in that case…although some links have just got still images which wont be too bad, but its just a case of risking it, which may turn out to be just a nuicance.
But anyway I am pleased that you have shown interest, and hope you will enjoy it,my poetry is on
http://www.phosphorescence1001.wordpress.com
Thanks again, often I find on wordpress the most talented people who consume the praise silently, it’s always nice when talented people are gracious and humble enough to respond…much love and respect Najma x
Thanks Kim. I could really only guess at the latter – teaching a child to be independent and letting them go to be so. I’m glad to hear from someone who is experiencing this themselves and that I may have, even a little, captured those thoughts and feelings.
This is so good and yes, on so many levels… I first thought of the loss of a child,which i have experienced…But then i thought of live birth, that result in a child, the process of preparing a child to be an independent adult…Both are totally different ways of letting go, allowing a child to “leave” and be free… I lost a child pre-birth and that was hard, now im losing one to independent adulthood (college) and that is hard as well. Thank you for capturing both!!